I've moved.
vpotatochip.tumblr.com
ok, i'm back coz tumblr is getting on my nerves for giving me error messages on the first day i just started on it. great experience eh. and all my inspiration gone. TUMBLR's gonna pay! RARWS!
Swallowtail 10:09:00 PM
escapism
i'm just working all the way to escape from the failures of my life.
i hate it when people do things and don't inform me and not until i found it out myself. it's a total horrible feeling. thanks for leaving me out. i would say "THANKS A LOT".
i know i am different from all of you, with all of you discussing about the same topics and stuff. i know and i can sense that. well, "THANKS A LOT" for making this disparity so clear by leaving me out.
i am really pissed about this. while you are pissed, please know that there are also people out there who are pissed as well. "THANKS A LOT" for not knowing this.
this is just weighing down to much in my chest that i have to rid it. well, at this point, i think i have no friends at all. and i finally understand why this topic has always been a problem to everything.
Swallowtail 1:28:00 AM
why am i doing this?
i starting asking myself. i don't know why am i doing this at all. it seems to be stripping me away from a lot of things i want to do.
i am very lost now. hopefully by 23rd, i will no longer feel this way.
december is running too fast.
Swallowtail 7:01:00 PM
Spencer and Marks.
i didn't get a teddy Spencer but i got a piggy Spencer anyway. it's really soft. and i have Marks on the left. the little pencil case. it's really a pink and piggy birthday for me this year. LOL. are they implying something? hmmmm. well, pigs are cute and clever, so i guess i am too. that's good.
hugging piggy Spencer now. oh...it's really soft. so is Marks. awww.....there's nothing to blog about. just so that i wanted to upload Spencer and Marks picture. haha. and i better sleep. i have a test later! :)
Swallowtail 12:25:00 AM
orchard road.
orchard road, the place where i'm both familiar and unfamiliar with.like a little child, i was in awe with the glitters and glams, the new and from the west. the superficial little child, who simply adores the superficial beautiful things.
yet, feel like a country bumpkin, who can never step into the stores as such. feeling so lowly of myself, that i never dared to make the first move in, knowing well i can't afford.
i love, yet i dislike orchard road.
the glowing lights that lit up everything new. the models that don everything of fashion. oh, how i love it. yet, it seems far away from me.
it's familiar, yet unfamiliar. i got lost in orchard road, just the other day, literally. walked up a down the path, looking for a way out.
lost. in the glitters and glams.
lost. in my own low self esteem and my empty pocket.
orchard road, so near, yet so far.
orchard road, so familiar, yet so unfamiliar.
oh, orchard road.
Swallowtail 8:19:00 PM
life = school + work + computer
that's what i've been doing. that's a little sad....but i do have amazing race and wong fu weekends to look forward to every weekend and monday or tuesday? LOL. it's been a long time since i last updated this. too caught up with everything that this is a little been forgotten. and it's good.....probably just means that i have less things i feel sad about and i'm pretty much more contented.
i've been pretty sleep deprived these few days...my own fault...for watching wong fu on youtube. HAHAHH. youtube is evil! making me neglecting a lot of things. or probably, i'm just re-prioritising my life.
what do i want to make out of my life? this question has been circling my brain for so many times for so many years. but inertia is stopping me to go where my heart wants me to go. probably i know myself too well, or probably i'm just a scaredy cat. watching wong fu and kevjumba and nigahiga just got me thinking a lot more of what i want.
anyway, that's all for rants. i shall stop. =D
Swallowtail 8:20:00 PM
i try so hard not to think.
yet, i cannot not think about it. keep myself happy as to keep the others happy. i cannot cry at this moment. i cannot. i know i can't. but i cannot help.
never knew this would ever happen to me. but it did. i once thought about it, but i dismissed it. because it's hard and painful to think about.
i laugh. i smile. all day long. putting it behind my head. but still i think about it.
but,
i guess it's gonna be alright.
i hope it will.
it has to.
Swallowtail 11:43:00 PM
