Thursday, April 30, 2009
best schoolthe
best school i went to. i once thought that broadrick was like.....uh hmm and beatty too. never thought that PC was that GOOD. i had a headache after the day. feel super tired after 2 days there. the students are super noisy...super attitude. in all, it's the
BEST school i went to.
money is not easy to earn. LOL.
but still, interesting things happened. sometimes don't know whether should i laugh at them or scold them. LOL. i cannot help it sometimes, but have to smile. =)
contradictory. anyway, that's me. heh.
fatgrowing fat each day because i'm stuck to the couch and tv each day; sleep more than 9 hours during weekends and eat a lot everyday (too much fried food). haha. i suddenly realised,
food is not part of my life, it's my life.haha, i cannot live without food! i love food too much. ♥
food = life. and i cannot complain i'm growing fat, cause i deserve it! LOL.
fat fat fat.....i can feel my fats wobbling!
Swallowtail 9:48:00 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
initiate.ever felt initiating a conversation is tiring? yup. i felt this way nowadays. guess i'm not popular and people don't want talk to me. =( and i hate to initiate conversation. i feel that i always sound so despo. hahah. because i feel quite bored all the time these few days. sleeping my time away. cannot believe how many hours i sleep a day. i should learn to keep the sleep bug away. so people if you see this, be sure to talk to me if you see me online! LOL.
bleah. feel so bored! =/
Swallowtail 9:35:00 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
i can't lie at all.i can't bring myself to act as if i like them in front of people whom i dislike. it's really hard to control my body to do so. that's why i can't lie at all. there's a very clear line to what or who i like or love or what or who i hate. you can usually feel it from my behaviour. some people may say that i lack the eq. well, i admit this is so. i admit i cannot control my emotions well. i'm a very blur person as well.
lying. i can't do that at all. i hate lying. it always felt bad when i have to do it. i can't lie through my teeth. really.
unless it's my own secrets that i don't want people to know.
THAT is my privacy. and it's another thing. other stuff wise, nope...don't ever ask me to lie. you may say that i'm too inflexible or anything, but i feel that we all have the right to know the truth. it really weighs too much on me.
so people....know that don't ever ask me to lie. and as well, i believe in people. i believe what you all say. and please don't misuse this trust i have in all of you. i will feel really angry.
really.
Swallowtail 8:49:00 PM
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
reminisce.it's really great to be back my primary school. too see the little children running about reminded me of my primary school days. the hop-scotch area, the mango trees, the 200m track and field, the classrooms and the familiar teachers. oh, there's also still the picture that i once drawn with my classmate hanging at the staircase. reminisce the good times that i once had. but still, there is also a sense of strangeness, unfamiliar places and new murals on walls. so long....i have not heard the singing of christian songs. LOL. but still....love the songs. humming along with them. now i'm back as alumni. sound so old. no wonder the kiddies called me aunty.
"thank you, good-bye and God bless you aunty and uncle!"little angels eh?
then....went to victoria jc today. met my friend...started talking a lot about the days during drama camp. who and who and who and who. LOL. then reminded me of secondary school and jc days. darn. i'm growing old such that i thinking so much of the past. hahha....but it's good to have this feeling back.
it feels good.
Swallowtail 9:56:00 PM
Friday, April 03, 2009
alone.watching movie alone ain't that bad....really. probably i enjoy being alone too much.
having the whole row to yourself....plus 3 rows in front empty. not bad....LOL. i guess i delibrately chose that movie, to feel how it's like to have empty seats around me. to be alone...
i'm afraid i'll love that feeling...because i don't want to be alone all the time. i need some company sometimes....you know what i mean. =X
Swallowtail 9:05:00 PM
intrudingnever really thought that reading people's blogs can be intruding their privacy. but the more i read...i really seem to be intruding. intruding a world that i don't know at all.
probably i lost contact with them. but still...the distant feeling don't feel that good. it's always that feeling that i'm lost in my own world. darn. (i've been using this word very frequently nowadays)
sometimes i wonder do i have an attitude problem? darn.
Swallowtail 12:49:00 AM
Thursday, April 02, 2009
waitingwaiting for ntu's news. hopefully...will get in.
and i'm waiting for something else. hope it will come soon too. HOPEFULLY.
or maybe, not. it's too hard to wait and look for it. damn.
Swallowtail 9:46:00 PM