“Just like the butterfly, I too will awaken in my own time.”
Deborah Chaskin
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
A letter to my flu
dear flu, thank you so much for the days with me. you gave me a wondrous time rubbing my nose red and so dry until it's peeling. thank you for giving me the opportunity to experience what exactly it feels like to be out of breath. i really appreciate that i can breath better now. thank you for giving me such a good excuse not to do work and study, thank you sooooo much. thank you for depriving me of all the good stuff i could i have eaten but couldn't, thanks for slimming me down. anyway, i just want to thank you for the whole week's experience and i will never forget. hope not to see you ever again. and all the best in not finding your next friend. yours sincerely, vpotatochip
my sincere words to my flu. it's still partially there, but soon to be gone. hopefully it will go away within this week.
again and again. so many things i want to say, yet i'm unable to put into words. angry? no. sad? no. happy? not exactly, but sort of mixed feelings. seriously, my brain is lack of oxygen.
and to huilong (not that he will read this lah), anyway today i smack you so hard a bit apologetic lah. didn't mean to smack so hard. but you are really mean to lie to us! over and over again. always lying to us. hmph. and this kind of thing some more! always cheating innocent gina of her feelings. how could you? and now you apologize to her and make her guilty. tsk tsk tsk, should reflect!
Swallowtail 6:51:00 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
i officially announce that i am still stuck with my damn flu. it blocks my nose, then makes it run like mad. (no pun intended...it really runs like endless tap) i used up loads of tissue paper, bet i cut down a whole lot of trees. i decided, i shall bring a roll of toilet paper to school tomorrow to spare me the pain. it made me breathless, panting, look like i'm crying. tears my eyes and make me look like a disgusting freak with flowing mucus all over my face. in the air con room, i'm the noisest person, straining every effort i can to make myself breathe, hoping that soon it will unblock that horrid blocked up pipe up my nose. still i failed and nearly fainted due to lack oxygen. how i wish, there was a vacuum cleaner that could just suck out all that sticky phlegm and mucus out of my nose and nasal tube. sparing me the agony of the blocked nose.
oh my dear flu, would you please leave me alone...i'm pitiful enough. stop playing tricks on me and my dear flat nose.
Swallowtail 5:22:00 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
i officially announce that i am down with flu. have been feeling groggy the whole day. had lots of tests during the past week, and had the ocip carwash yesterday.
as promised, putting up my photos...it's been like grandmother ages since i uploaded photos on this blog. uploaded lots on class blog. if you want to know what i did in class, go to my class blog! as for my personal photos, i put it here.
ps j2 farewell
random photos in class
@ AWWA
the photos are blur i know...but oh wells. the photobucket ain't working....i edited photos already... anywayz, it's our spastic photos....LOL.
this is wih ms girija. haha.
in the lift, qian hua kana blocked....LOL.
Swallowtail 5:02:00 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
i realised i have too few photos of myself with friends, that's why i keep taking photos recently. so pardon me if i suddenly say, "let's take a photo!". =D so smile naturally! lol.
still pondering where should i go in future. the course that i truly want will be mass communications and probably hospitality and tourism. just hope i can make it into these 2/3. but first i must read up on the requirements and the courses! yeah yeah.
time is running away again. losing time. A levels coming soon. and i have LOTS and LOTS of timed practice. i seem to be studying for tests over and over again. -_-' but still it's for my future! keep up the good work, hwee lin! but should buck up more for physics! learning hard. choosing hard. praying hard. that i will work out in the end.
and yes, i took some photos quite some photos! will put up soon!
Swallowtail 7:43:00 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
i suddenly missed this song so much...reminded me not to regret.
to me, this week, my own carelessness nearly cost me a bomb. i dropped my wallet and was worried sick. because lots of my important documents are in the wallet. but fortunately, the school attendant picked it up for me and left it in the general office. i am really grateful to him. i'll thank him the next time i see him. LOL.
it's again, the time of the year, to really PRAISE yourself all you are worth. i seriously hate doing so. where's the humility anyway? no wonder there's no such quality required in the school graduation certificate (sgc). shouldn't this kind of thing be done by a third person? hmph. still it's for my future. i shall still do it. though i'm being forced.
life still goes on. life will always go on whether you like it or not, but there will always be HOPE.
Swallowtail 1:08:00 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
i donated blood on wednesday, 9th July 2008. this is purely trying to record my memorable blood donation experience. lol. no no. just to remind me when did i have my first blood donation. wasn't that bad.
too many hilarious things happened over the whole week. especially on friday. but, it's just too much for me to record it down here.
growing up.
time is running away so fast, that i cannot seem to see where it is. with a blink of eye, i'm almost 18. still remember the times i wish i could grow up fast and now i'm wishing that i do not have to grow up and face the reality of time.
looking at the AWWA students i was taking yesterday, it just dawned on me that it's been a year. they've changed a lot, no longer like i've known them. even in just 1 month not with them, they all change. for the better, of course. they are so versatile. i'm happy for them, but i still feel really sad that i'm missing part and parcel of their growing up.
jonathan is able to reply me, when i asked him questions. jerry is now able to identify words, do maths sums and think for himself. muhd is improving slightly. benji, now a lot more well-behaved.
to think of it, i seem to be the one clinging onto them, in hope of stopping time.
it's time for me tolearn to let go.
it's part of my life to learn it. part of the process of me growing to be a better person.
i'm growing alongside with them.
Swallowtail 2:19:00 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
to be frank, until now i'm still not sure what i want to do in future.
uncertainty.
the sense of importance of my future just makes me hesitant to make any decisions. i'm still not sure of what i am truly good in. for one thing, i want to take the easy way out, on the other hand, i also want to do what i would like a lot. between breadand interest. it's not an easy decision.
dare to dream.
it's what many people say, but how easy it is to do so? especially when you don't know what to dream for. my family is not giving me any pressure, yet i give myself the pressure to choose the best path for myself. and i don't want to waste my parents money on learning skills which will not help me in anyway. i still have to consider. i lack the motivation to do well.
i need a goal.
i'm still considering. i'm in the maze of this complicated world.
Swallowtail 9:06:00 PM
AUTObiography
vpotatochip
age: start of 19 date: 30th Oct
identity 1: L or Lin identity 2: student-NTU
identity 3: ex-student- ajc and plmgs
what i need to be a better person
1) patience
2) open mind
3) learn
4) my own identity (in the midst of finding)