Thursday, August 16, 2007
after reading my friend's blog ( i won't state who is it), i had tears in my eyes. suddenly, i thought of things i could had done for her when she had problems, when she was depressed, when she was going through all those trauma. sometimes i wonder why i am so cowardly, with no courage to do the right thing or to have the determination to insist on doing the right thing. looking back at my life, there just have been so many regrets. looking back at my problems, compared to her, my problems are nothing at all. nothing. back then i wanted to help her, but i didn't know how. i didn't know how to talk to her when she was at such a sensitive stage, when any words can just cause an emotional outburst. i remembered having a big fight with her while planning sec 4 farewell. and how we made up. i guess i was afraid that would happen again. good friends from sec 1 and sec 2, and now..... i am speechless.
always looking back, i seem to sometimes forget her. yet i still remember her, as an unique girl who actually had changed part of my life. influenced my thoughts and views. i just want to say, i won't forget you, even if i may seem to forget you at times, but you are always at the back of my mind. always.
Swallowtail 11:02:00 PM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
OMG. O.O can you believe it? i got into ocip. yes. oh gosh. i got in. qian hua was super excited when she saw that piece of notice pinned up on the notice board. when she told me...i guess i was pretty calm. lol. didn't know why. i felt that if i didn't get in i will also find that it's ok . probably i have too many committments. and i thought i always die during interviews. my interview experience had never been good. the teacher that interviewed me wasn't that friendly. she looked pretty demanding. so i don't deny that i was nervous. muahahax. anyway. i still got in. somehow, which i don't know how. now who cares? i have something to really spur me to study real hard for promos. i really have to at least at least pass. i shouldn't put my expectations so low, but it had always been my standard. lol. i don't aim high at all. that is why my results always plateau. -_-" can't help it. it's my nature. oh yes.
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y S I N G A P O R E !Y O U A R E 4 2 ! though a bit late. but still....i'm proud to be a singaporean! lol.
Swallowtail 1:14:00 AM
Monday, August 06, 2007
it really has been a long time since i blogged here. i'm not sure whether is it i'm lazy, or i'm in no mood to blog in here anymore. i guess i don't really find time to enjoy blogging like i once had. it's like the many things that i enjoy so much last time. the last thing that i hope this will happen will be me enjoying family time. i really hope this will never happen. family shall always be my priority.
anyway, if there is anyone out there (HELLOoo
oooooo...)who is really dying to see what i have been doing ( which is probably a zero percent), i shall just blog what i recently did.the newest event would have been the moe invitational debate finals on last saturday. or whatever you call it. because i really cannot remember the full name. anyway, it was pretty interesting though the fact that not much of the information the debaters talked about went through my head. i was just trying to find the right angle to get the photos taken. the lighting was really bad as it was different for different parts of the audi. yes, it was at the singapore power auditorium. i was super high that day. probably it was the chips that jiexin brought. it was like laughing gas. i couldn't stop laughing. i laughed at funny things, things that are not that funny, literally everything. pretty stupid. anyway, there were 4 photographers from ajps plus one professional photographer. we were in a pretty bad position as we are as experienced as he was. thus ajps seemed to be a little bit redundant at that event. anyway, it was quite an interesting experience. i met nicole mao (again) and cheryl sim! lol. by the way, the results for the debate, acjc vs rjc, rjc won. yup. and after the event, we still had to bring home the dSLR. anyway, i guess that's all for that event coverage.
next thing. what shall i talk about? i really think of anything. wait till i remember the next time. and i guess i'm not going to upload my photos anymore on my blog, it seeemed to me pretty dangerous. lol. ^-^
Swallowtail 9:08:00 PM