like a little child, i was in awe with the glitters and glams, the new and from the west. the superficial little child, who simply adores the superficial beautiful things.
yet, feel like a country bumpkin, who can never step into the stores as such. feeling so lowly of myself, that i never dared to make the first move in, knowing well i can't afford.
i love, yet i dislike orchard road.
the glowing lights that lit up everything new. the models that don everything of fashion. oh, how i love it. yet, it seems far away from me.
it's familiar, yet unfamiliar. i got lost in orchard road, just the other day, literally. walked up a down the path, looking for a way out.
lost. in the glitters and glams.
lost. in my own low self esteem and my empty pocket.
orchard road, so near, yet so far.
orchard road, so familiar, yet so unfamiliar.
oh, orchard road.
that's what i've been doing. that's a little sad....but i do have amazing race and wong fu weekends to look forward to every weekend and monday or tuesday? LOL. it's been a long time since i last updated this. too caught up with everything that this is a little been forgotten. and it's good.....probably just means that i have less things i feel sad about and i'm pretty much more contented.
i've been pretty sleep deprived these few days...my own fault...for watching wong fu on youtube. HAHAHH. youtube is evil! making me neglecting a lot of things. or probably, i'm just re-prioritising my life.
what do i want to make out of my life? this question has been circling my brain for so many times for so many years. but inertia is stopping me to go where my heart wants me to go. probably i know myself too well, or probably i'm just a scaredy cat. watching wong fu and kevjumba and nigahiga just got me thinking a lot more of what i want.
anyway, that's all for rants. i shall stop. =D