Wednesday, March 24, 2010
"the skeletons in my closet, are too big for me to hide"what's the meaning behind the smile? who can ever know? probably only God knows.
skeletons threatening to burst out, revealing my flaws and fears. it's too tiring to hold them back. the lock is soon getting worn out. who has the keys? i don't know at the moment. tell me if you have it, won't you?
i'll only open at the right time, with the right key. when the right person comes. =D
Swallowtail 8:46:00 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
learnthere's a lot of things i'm feeling very irritable about and i don't know what's the reason. just my usual mood swings. but then i feel that this issue, this nonsense is getting on far too long.
is learning being independent that difficult to handle?i cannot understand why some people cannot really absorb what the lesson is teaching them, yet making irresponsible comments making others to sympathise them, especially when it comes from a guy. O.O
have the same expression as me? maybe, (or maybe not maybe) i am a difficult person to handle, which i do agree to some extent. because i am very firm on my stand in a fight. i know this does not solve the problem but then i just can't stand it when people do all these irritable stuff.
this is your own life and it does not depend on others to control it. others may be a co-factor or co-enzyme or inhibitor in your life, but the true catalyst that makes your life move on is YOU! YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU! why can't you get this straight. because of my horrible character, i am finding it very irritable when you blame others totally for ruining your life. =.= (get the same expression as me?)
reflect on things that you do and identify the problem. face your flaws for once. it's hard to start but when you start it, you get a better life. SERIOUSLY. and i'm speaking as a person with past experience. you can change your life for the better if you learn to change too, i.e. adaptability. as what Darwin's evolution theory suggests, "the survival of the fittest", adapt or you get eliminated. i sound harsh but it is the reality of the world.
(am i imposing more karma on me?)
and another note, independence is nurtured, not innate. don't use that superficial excuse.
i just need to get it off my chest. whew.
Swallowtail 11:56:00 PM