Thursday, July 27, 2006
finally, my computer's back! i haven't been using the computer for a very long time. so started blogging. what's with me recently? first time in my life, i didn't want to look at the calendar, didn't like weekends. why? because i know that everytime i look at the calendar, everytime it comes to weekends, i know that i've wasted one day, one week. o' levels are coming fast. prelims in just
45 days. i don't know what to do. i have a fear in me, a fear that i will disappoint myself, my family. i don't even know just what's wrong with me, being fearful of examinations. i have this feeling that i'm going to breakdown sooner or later. i know i should not worry, yet every night i close my eyes, i feel the time slip past me. never ever felt like this before. the stress and fear. never had occurred on me until last year. first time i ever doubted my own capabilities, doubted myself. i'm feeling very confused, tired and unhappy. not one day can i ever leave the exams behind my mind. then i should do something about it...shouldn't i?? how can i do it? can someone tell me...please?
Swallowtail 6:26:00 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
no internet connection for the next few days, won't be updating.... for
many many many many many many many.......days.....haiz. 90 hour music marathon.
tomorrow today's the last day. shall i go support?? considering....i thought we were going to do badly on saturday, well, we were not too bad. can be considered quite okay. i managed to survive without internet for 1 week, i think i'm great, coz i managed to do something i thought i wouldn't have done. NOW. juniors rehearsing for RI performance for next week. they did real bad the last time, in the end, i ended up directing them. bad habit of mine. :X i will be doing audio. first time doing this job. grins. hope i can make it.
ANNOUNCEMENTRI drama performance on
friday (7th July) and
saturday (8th July), 7.30pm at Lecture Theatre 1. latest news is that the friday slot is full house. so no use trying to get the friday tickets. lol. we are also performing for one of the skits. PL girls, interested, pls come. lol.
Swallowtail 1:09:00 AM