Saturday, November 21, 2009
treasure.when will we treasure,
the ones who loved us so dearly,
and always by our side?
when will we learn,
not to take them for granted,
like a grain of sand on the beach,
as insignificant as it?
when will we understand,
that they are important,
like the heart that pumps blood in us,
which brings life to us?
when will we know,
that we need to hold their hands tight,
give them a hug and enjoy the time
together with them?
when will we?
when they are gone?
when they are lost?
when they no longer know you?
when they are not a part of our life?
a missing part of puzzle in us,
if we do not.
a wrench in our hearts,
if we do not.
a showering of tears,
if we do not.
a regret,
if we do not.
a lost,
if we do not.
treasure,
the biggest treasures in your life.
Swallowtail 12:30:00 AM
Friday, November 13, 2009
hidinggone into hiding. keeping to myself. even i know that my actions and behaviour sometimes looks weird, but can't help it. trying hard to keep the mask on.
don't force me to take it off, i will look ugly. keep that good image of me. don't try to prise it off me. it's difficult for me not to wear it in front of people, because i have too much to hide. too much.
keep me in the hiding for the moment. if i feel i'm able to take the mask off, i will.
Swallowtail 11:11:00 PM
Friday, November 06, 2009
some things never change, like how leopards never change its spots and the earth never stop revolving.and i'm one of the phenomena of unchanged matter. still as pessismistic as i was in the past. the core personality can never change, no matter how hard i try to hide and change. it's too inert to changes. i don't know whether is this a good or bad thing, but i just know, the core of me, is still me.
how i feel about people treating me, it hasn't changed either. it might be my proble, but this is getting on way too long. i had been hoping, to get to the other greener pastures. now, the hope seems like a small oil lamp, flickering in times of thunderstorms.
had been feeling on the low side. can't help it. everything seems dull and dark. nothing seems to be going right for me. though i know there is nothing wrong, yet i can't convince myself this is so.
not feeling myself at all. and my temper is getting worse. trying to find ways of anger management. if this goes on, i can't concentrate on anything. i had only been trying hard to act normal and forcing myself to be normal.
trying to find myself again.
finding hwee lin. director: hwee lin actress: hwee linwhat should i do?
Swallowtail 12:34:00 AM