Monday, March 30, 2009
acceptedi'm accepted. can you believe it? darn....
but...we shall see what happens....
let's wait and observe.
Swallowtail 11:05:00 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
feeling indignant.damn. i'm feeling super indignant.
i hate people who always does the talking and not doing anything.
i hate people who bad mouth people when they are horrid themselves.
i hate poeple who think they are so good when they are not and still does the above.
i hate people who cannot tolerate a bit of inconvenience of his own and yet causes others' inconvenience.
i just hate people that is the combination of above.
Swallowtail 8:40:00 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
MeSsthis is the point of time my mind is in a mess.
i need to clear my mind of what i want.
too many considerations just obstructs the clear mind i used to have.
face up to reality. face up.
mEsSi want to know what lies ahead of me.
conflictsbread or dreams? i'm back to square one ain't i?
someone once asked me, "don't you have dreams? up till now you still don't know what you want to do? that's sad..."
the fact is, i have...once, i had. but....as i said considerations from various aspects just overwhelmed me. hesistant to dare to say i have a dream and that i know what to do.
i am, but an ordinary person. pursuing dreams need $$$. not everyone can do so.
plus, i'm afraid i'll regret. i don't want people to suffer with me as well. i hate to drag people down. hate it so much.
under a different light, why not show what i can do? strive hard. prove them wrong shouldn't i? i already said, i am so risk averse. still...
TAKE RISKS. try it dear....
Swallowtail 11:25:00 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
learnthere's so many things for me to learn. i have to know that life's not a bed of roses. nothing comes without hard work. i have to learn to try and be daring to try. never try i'll never know. things may not be as what it seems to be that tough (though life is definitely tough, who says it isn't?) but life still goes on. i should not always take the path that is the easiest. challenge myself to the limit. i should learn to be hopeful!
a new phase of life. new things to learn. i shall not succumb to circumstances but
learn.
Swallowtail 3:10:00 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
escapei tend to escape from things that i feel it's difficult or stressful. i should learn to stop escaping. JIA YOU!
Swallowtail 9:12:00 PM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
choices.my mind's a whirlpool. i have what i want in mind but there are restrictions. i know i can go far as long as i put my mind on it. but others don't think so. i guess some are disillusioned and they 'advise' me not to. it's really irritating.
Swallowtail 4:31:00 PM
Friday, March 06, 2009
i am glad.truly glad and satisfied with my results. =D
Swallowtail 9:23:00 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
music.
i can't live without music now. music is part of my life.
music = life.to some,
photography = life.i'm not at that stage yet. let's see what will become of me. wait till i get my dslr. wait.
Swallowtail 11:28:00 PM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
flu. down with flu again. blocked nose, and runny nose (yah, i need to chase after it, as contributed by kenneth). why am i so prone to flu?
changes.i realised i haven't changed much from my secondary school. really not much in terms of personality. i'm still as before. i'm glad for that, it just shows that i have not lost myself in the midst of chaotic messes in my life. i am who i am. (sounds cliche? true, but i'm really glad because i had been disillusioned for quite some time and this didn't come easy.)
changes for the better, i guess i did, somehow in small little ways. i learnt to
give. it really brings joy. the small actions to show care and concern create a much bigger impact than i expected. do what i can for others, especially the ones i love. this is what i learnt from the ocip trip and definitely from my friends. again, i am glad to have such friends and able to experience it from the trip. to be precise, i was touched. truly. thank God for it. i am definitely a better person, less self-centered.
there's a lot of things i want to say...but i can't seem to think properly. probably the flu is catching on me.
all i know, it's a lovely world outside.
Swallowtail 9:37:00 PM