“Just like the butterfly, I too will awaken in my own time.”
Deborah Chaskin
Friday, July 20, 2007
everything has changed... i'm not myself anymore. my friends... distant and far. i don't know. i simply don't like this life.
the simple feelings. the simple emotions. the innocence. the happiness.
feel like crying. yet i can't cry. they don't accept crying. 'coz i'm grown up. my life. spinnning out of control. trying hard to grasp that single ray of hope.... that i hope i can grab hold to. the single thing that i can stop from changing.
the earth still revolves around the sun. the gravitational field is always there. but earth is never the same. people are never the same anymore.
feeling hurt, angry and sad. tell me that time would turn back.
but i know this won't happen. time will never stop. i can never stop. changes never stop. perhaps...hurt will never stop too. all changed. but hurt never changes. never. the negative feelings is perhaps the only thing that is unchanged.
everything has changed.
Swallowtail 11:30:00 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i saw a beatiful sunset today. the sun was round and orange and fluffy clouds around.
the sun was really big. i never seen that before. esctatic, i shouted in excitement.
though it was the end of a day. though i was alone, on a narrow winding lane. though bugs and insects were calling continuously. though i had a heavy load on my back. i never stop watching.
i ran toward the sun. i didn't thought about stopping. up the winding lane. my eyes never left the sun. i was afraid the sun was going to disappear anytime.
my hope. my dreams. my time and everything.
soon the sun disappeared. but the sky was dyed red and pink. it was time for me to go. i've reached a dead end. nowhere to go. turning back....
i'll never know when i'm going to see that sight again. soon. i hope. i hope. home is now where i shall go.
Swallowtail 9:31:00 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
ok. CTs last week. and this week results are horrendous. i had never in my life received such horrendous results. such disappointment. because all the horrible results were because i was careless. how could i??? haven't i learnt my lesson from secondary school add maths? sigh. that's bad. hopefully my econs and maths won't be that bad. i believe my physics is a gone case. must be going for remedials. crap. it's not that i have no photos already, but it's just too big to be put up here. so, you want to see my korea trip photos, they are on my msn space, which is under the link "the other me". =D
next thing. ps just had a reshuffle of people from the different specialist teams, because the sports team was taken over by the service team. so now ajps has 4 specialist teams, namely the service team, studio team, darkroom team and adobe team. basically the service team does all the event coverage work which was done previously, literally by the whole club. so guess which team i'm in now. noooo...not studio! i'm in the service team now! in this cca, i have had 3 shuffles around the teams. firstly, the sports team, then the studio team and now service team! wow! all starts with 's'! =X but with all this shuffling, in fact i get to learn various techniques from various areas of photography. parts and pieces though. haha. so not really that in depth. i guess it will help me in event coverage next time.
finally, i decided to join overseas cip (ocip), to northern thailand. i made this decision because i feel that i have been in my comfort zone for too long. i would want to go out to see the world. i want to search myself and realise my qualities. i guess i should muster up my courage to do something i never dare to do. courage is what i want to bring out. furthermore, if by going there, i can help the ones in need, it will be pretty meaningful. to me, i am going to learn more about myself, and more life skills and lessons through each new trip and experience. hopefully i can get it. i also want to have a taste of really planning a programme for this trip. this will give me experience in organisation and event planning and equip me with the neccesary skills. however, to get in i have to get pass the interview, which i'm pretty bad at. hopefully i get in. =D
now for some new photos i took!
Swallowtail 10:46:00 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
거리에서 - 성시경 on the street - sung si kyung album: the ballads
nice song. lol. for all of you there to listen to. korean.
Swallowtail 12:13:00 AM
AUTObiography
vpotatochip
age: start of 19 date: 30th Oct
identity 1: L or Lin identity 2: student-NTU
identity 3: ex-student- ajc and plmgs
what i need to be a better person
1) patience
2) open mind
3) learn
4) my own identity (in the midst of finding)