Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Sigh, so tired...camp nxt week, sigh...everything is so boring today, I've got a flu! Block nose and runny nose, feel like sleeping all day....sick...I hate it. Tomorrow have to rehearse for competition, sigh....sigh...sigh....sighhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!These few days I always feel so leftout...really leftout....dunno what is happening among my friends. I always feel so extra, perhaps I'm just extra. Once an extra, always an extra. Is that true? I don't know. I'm still looking for that answer, looking for that special friend who will make me feel as a part...perhaps I can never find taht friend...but I will be waiting, waiting and waiting...sometimes I just feel like crying, for no reason, I just feel so jealous of some people of being able to fit into a group...I just...well, cannot describe this sense of unwantedness. Perhaps no one wants to be my friend....sigh...
Swallowtail 10:05:00 PM