Thursday, July 27, 2006
finally, my computer's back! i haven't been using the computer for a very long time. so started blogging. what's with me recently? first time in my life, i didn't want to look at the calendar, didn't like weekends. why? because i know that everytime i look at the calendar, everytime it comes to weekends, i know that i've wasted one day, one week. o' levels are coming fast. prelims in just
45 days. i don't know what to do. i have a fear in me, a fear that i will disappoint myself, my family. i don't even know just what's wrong with me, being fearful of examinations. i have this feeling that i'm going to breakdown sooner or later. i know i should not worry, yet every night i close my eyes, i feel the time slip past me. never ever felt like this before. the stress and fear. never had occurred on me until last year. first time i ever doubted my own capabilities, doubted myself. i'm feeling very confused, tired and unhappy. not one day can i ever leave the exams behind my mind. then i should do something about it...shouldn't i?? how can i do it? can someone tell me...please?
Swallowtail 6:26:00 PM