Saturday, April 19, 2008
i haven't been myself for the past week. seriously, i get very emotional and really unable to control myself and keep those emotions in check. neither do i know why i would feel emotional. monday, i cried during pe. it was the first emotional breakdown. the results were a big impact to me. never have i cried for results besides the only 1 time in secondary school.
yet this was not the worse, friday was worrying. i feel that i'm having a nervous breakdown. i didn't know what made me that emotional and touchy. i wasn't feeling that well. all i wanted to do was to scream like nobody's business. and when i did, (at ronald. pretty apologetic to him) i was feeling faint. my legs and body were going soft. i seem to have drained all my strength away. my chest was feeling heavy. i was having breathing difficulties. it was really not my day. and i made my friends worried. really sorry to make all of you so worried. i think i should look for lionel someday. LOL.
anyway, ps camp just ended! we were looking for exco members. but slightly disappointed because unable to find the one with high potential for the post ccp. the camp was pretty cool, there were interesting games, a night walk, and we were playing bridge, dai dee and indian poker till 4+am. lol. overall it was not too bad, but just lack of sleep. feeling real tired. shall sleep soon.
signing off.
Swallowtail 9:26:00 PM
