unexpected thing happened while covering the ABCDE today. didn't expect myself to go down to yishun on my own to st luke's day care center. i ended up covering the service-learning (SL) of the DE campers. they were supposedly to teach the elderly origami and play games with them. i was supposed to take photos of their activities. but in the end, i ended up talking to the elderly. i can't resist doing volunteer work! lol. funny me. and when we were to leave, the ah ma held on to my hand tightly. she couldn't bear to see us leave. she was so happy to see us there to listen to them and to talk to them. at that moment, i realised how lonely the elderly are, and it reminded me of my 2 grandmothers, who are no longer as well as they used to be. they are getting more forgetful and less mobile. i wonder sometimes if this is a part and parcel of a life or it depends? but something there just seem to grip me tightly, which i'm unable to decipher.
nevertheless, i feel happy still to have made the day of someone. it just feel really good to make someone smile. =D unforgettable.
Swallowtail 7:17:00 PM
sometimes just reading my friends' blogs just make me sad and guilty. i realised i haven't been contacting my friends enough and i'm just stuck right here in my own world. it's just that kind of moment when it just strikes me:
hey, the world isn't just about you! the world still revolves even without you!
i'm missing out the important parts of my friends' lives. i'm not even trying to know more about them. my life is just so pretty messed up recently. just by my own trivial matters. oh my, someone, please snap me out of this dreamy world! i am really getting lost.
lost.
Swallowtail 9:09:00 PM
these are the real thick-skinned photos. super like fanclub. and realised that i'm not in the photos? coz i was the one who took those photos! LOL. anyway, they are just so nice to take photos with us (excluding me). haha. shu fen is just infatuated with someone. =D going to upload some of the bball finals photos i took that day, if i managed to get those in my hands.
Swallowtail 1:35:00 PM
OMG. >.< i'm not going to talk about any "philosophical things" today. i am just totally amazed by the A div. guys basketball finals. probably i didn't manage to watch any basketball matches that's why i was so totally taken aback. LOL. but i was watching the game through adistorted view, yes, through the viewfinder of the dSLR. i missed parts of the game. exciting parts somemore. -.- but it was really exciting. undeniably, both the aj team and hci team are good. no doubt. so those who actually doubted aj bball team , they should see what the effort they put in. well done! and seriously, those who have the passion and are serious in what they are doing really look super cool. like how they were like today!
funny thing that happened after the game. the whole group of 7-8 aj girls started going around taking photos with the aj team members! so thick-skinned right? lol. namely #6, #8 and #14. it was hilarious. anyway, they also went to take with the mvp, #13 of hci. cannot believe that we did that. unbelievable! but it was really a great game. a game probably i'll remember for life.
Swallowtail 9:09:00 PM
feeling really faint and tired. i just pray hard i could survive through tomorrow, the chemistry spa exam. i'm really... going down and down and down. having a bad headache, my head just feels heavy.
wish time could stop.
let me.
let me.
stop this pain.
stop all this swirling.
stop all this chaos.
let me be.
to leave this chaotic world.
do what i like.
leave my headache behind.
sleep to my heart's content.
let my imagination run wild.
see fantasies that brings hope to my life.
hope.
just let me be.
Swallowtail 5:33:00 PM
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Swallowtail 9:49:00 PM
a change of plans again, i can't go for ocip this year. is it disappointing for me? i think the impact wasn't that great as people expect it would have been for me. probably, there were some 'omens'. didn't manage to go this year, does not mean i cannot go back anymore. i guess, the hope of going back to see them keeps me on and blocked out all the disappointment.
contentment again. i am contented with what i have. in fact i should share this opportunity of experiencing to the rest. i'm not all that altruistic, but i think it is right for others to learn and grow. and memories will always stay with me. the times we had together and the things that i learnt.
but, i would really want to help the new batch to organise for the trip! >.< it will be good to be involved in one way or another and probably get to know the new batch of ocip people. not too bad an idea isn't it? =)
Swallowtail 12:58:00 PM
i suddenly realised how fortunate i was....
to have the opportunity to actually go back to thailand....
many people yearn for it, yet are unable to get it.
sometimes i really feel quite bad,
unable to share this opportunity with the rest.
they would love to go back to see our beloved students again.
but i'm unable to do so, to make them happy again.
really feel bad. =(
i am really privileged...and fortunate.
i am really fortunate in many ways.
to experience, to enjoy and to learn and grow.
i should be contented with what i have.
i should not whine about what i don't have.
i have too many things which others do not have.
a roof over my head,
sufficient or even surplus food,
a wonderful family,
a great bunch of friends and classmates,
lots of opportunities for me to grab hold.
i should be content. =D
Swallowtail 9:27:00 PM
losing myself.
losing my life.
losing my aim.
losing everything i could have.
time passes.
and i'm changing.
thought the change may have been good,
but i'm losing the things that used to be great importance.
losing the time.
losing the past.
losing my childhood.
losing my memories.
losing my friends.
losing motivation.
losing the confidence.
losing the optimism.
regrets. yet there is no turning back.
Swallowtail 6:22:00 PM
