Tuesday, August 26, 2008
woke up crying.it was an incredible feeling. didn't realise that i was really crying in reality until i felt the hot tears rolling down my cheeks. and i was crying pretty loudly. lol. funny that my father and sister didn't wake up. when i realised, i started wiping my tears away and went back to sleep, wondering why did i cry because of a dream.
the dream was at my grandma's birthday party (with loads of crappy stuff before that, like playing volleyball with some celebrity -_-'''), then i was in the room (using the computer, when i don't even have a computer in my room), didn't know that people were already singing birthday song and so on and leaving pretty soon. when i got out of the room, i realised everybody was gone. asked my family members why they didn't call me out. they said, they did and since i didn't come out, they went on without me. and then i ran back to my room and cried. that's when i woke up. it was the feeling of being left out in the family event that left me crying.
it's not the first time i had similar dreams. but it's the first one that i cried myself awake. lol. it's very much ridiculous because my parents and sisters would never leave me out in family events. it's impolite for me to stay in the room anyway. but still, is my dream telling me something?
i don't know. and probably won't know. haven't been having such dreams for a long long time. the emotions felt too real. but i'm my normal self now.
Swallowtail 2:58:00 PM
