Friday, November 14, 2008
i feel so terribly pathetic.this has nothing to do with my exams. it's something else that's bothering me. it just make me feel that i am irksome and pathetic. i'm sinking back to my old self, a few years back.
unloved.i have tried convincing myself i'm not _____ but can't seem to rid myself of that feeling. i just don't know what's the matter with me these few days. that monster is back to haunt me again. and i guess i'm soon closing myself up, in my old shell. old habits seem to die hard. the more i try, the more i seem to be trapped. trapped in this stupid cycle which seeming is perpetual, never going to stop. i just wish this would go away, but the gnawing feeling keeps taunting me. just GO AWAY. that's my plea.
hopefully, time will heal? but as far as i am concerned, it's not effective for me. i shall look for another alternative. i shall till i get rid of it.
once and for all.
Swallowtail 9:11:00 PM