44th birthday in fact. sending my greetings through here. 3 years ago, i remember using the same picture above in my blog post. it was 41st national day. lol. wonder how the girl is doing? btw, i didn't take this....found this picture on google long time ago. forgot to trackback. so sorry for that.

every year, watching the national day parade, brings about different emotions through me. through so many years of national days, one thing and one item will always touch me: national day songs. no matter what, the songs are the only thing that strikes that chord in me that i am a singaporean. because i find the lyrics meaningful. especially the old national day songs. and i'm feeling touched and glad that i'm a singaporean. really glad.

getting to the other side,

i start thinking about death now, i know it's a sudden change in topic.....not that i want to die, but to watch people around pass away...it really hurts. no, no one around me died just then, but...it just hurts badly, especially people whom you know. just this year, jaclyn....a bubbly, cheerful girl...just left. knowing she's not alive anymore and accepting that fact seemed to be like a finger that pressed that button in me and caused the tears to flow non-stop. death doesn't seem like a reality at all. just like MJ's death. it doesn't. it sounded like a complete joke to me. just like how i read and re-read the sms they sent about jaclyn, never letting the news sinking in. probably because i believed people to live forever and forever, at least longer than me. my future includes everyone. and probably that's the reason i hate to face death...especially to my loved ones....everything changes when 1 person goes away.

and here, i just hope everyone lives happily and healthily, my family members and friends. NO one is out in my dream, in my future. make sure you are going be there. =)