Wednesday, January 27, 2010
last.hate the feeling to be the last to know. that squeezing feeling of the heart....it's too hard to remove.
laughter.what's after the laughter?
it happened to me so suddenly.
tears after laughter.
rolling down the cheeks without warning.
all at once, my laughter feels so fake.
my cheeks felt tired with the tensed muscles.
a suddely release of strained muscles....
too sudden.
a moment ago, i thought i was relatively happy.
another moment, i felt....
what is all these happy emotions about?
it feels so superficial.
and all these became transient.
it seems my mask had been taken off.
the mask that i put on all the time,
removed in an instant....
so quick that i couldn't react.
so...my laughter was a mask after all.
a mask that hasn't been removed after a long long time.
why am i laughing anyway?
why?
where am i?
Swallowtail 11:42:00 PM